On “What’s Next”
One of my tiny clients (I’ll call her Lisa) asks a lot of questions. She is only five, so I can’t really fault her for it and her favorite question right now is “What’s next?” The other day I promised her we would make cookies (one of her all-time favorite things to do). We were elbow deep in cookie dough, when she piped up “What’s after this, Katie?”
I laughed– because I’m used to this question—and told her “Lisa, we are baking now, this is what we are doing now; you don’t need to worry about anything else.”
I often have to remind her to be present, to be a kid, and trust “what’s next” to me, so I don’t lose patience with her questions; if anything, it makes me sad that she is constantly bracing for the next change and questioning if I have thought ahead. I suppose precious few adults in her life have done that.
On the same day Nate and I were waiting on a phone call that we thought would tell us “What’s Next?” in our lives. Instead of getting the answer we were looking for we got a “keep waiting.” As I struggled with anger and frustration and uncertainty over not getting my “what’s next” question answered, I realized my question was the same as Lisa’s.
And like I told her God spoke to my heart reminding me that for this moment, I was where He wanted me to be.
My human tendency to rush ahead and eliminate uncertainty might help me momentarily feel more at ease, but it doesn’t help me develop trust, patience, or perseverance.
If God told me “what’s next” I would probably become fixated on planning and preparing and miss what He wants me to experience now. If I told little Lisa that right after we were finished baking cookies we were going to play outside she might have gotten so excited about playing that she overlooked the fun we were having creating cookies.
It isn’t easy to relinquish our perception of control, but what peace knowing that God holds our future!
What joy knowing that his gifts are more than we can ask or imagine!
What freedom in releasing our worries to Him and living in the moment to serve Him!