Who’s on the couch?

I was talking with one of my coworkers about her children behaving at school.  She marveled at how well behaved her strong-willed daughter was for her teacher. “ You see, they have this couch in their classroom,” she told me, “and whoever is the best behaved the day before get’s to sit on the couch during story time while everyone else is sitting on their mats. Only one person gets to sit on the couch each day. My daughter would do anything not to sit on the floor; she just lives to sit on the couch.

You see, the other student’s prize, their award, their glory meant you didn’t get the prize.

Glory.

It is a hard term to define. The Bible uses different words to describe glory:  one of earliest was kabud. It meant heaviness.

Heaviness: like gold and riches and people who had enough to eat. It came to mean honor, abundance, riches, splendor, dignity, reputation.

But I like the first definition: glory is feeling the whole weight (the splendor, riches, dignity, reputation,) of who God really is. It’s heavy. 

When Moses asked God in Exodus 33:18 “Show me Your glory” he wasn’t asking for a glimpse of the vault of heaven or to hear God’s credentials read aloud to him.  He was asking to see God, to see Him for everything He is.

As a wedding present someone gave Nate and I the Dave Ramsey Financial Peace course.  If you know anything about Dave Ramsey, he is all about paying off debt and saving money.  Relentlessly.  His term for this is “gazelle-like intensity.” Well, after coming home from the “wipeout debt with gazelle-running-from-hungry-lion-intensity” Nate and I did just that.  We rarely ate out.  We bought the cheapest groceries.  We didn’t go to movies.  We didn’t buy new clothes or gadgets.  We had a few ADHD moments, but in less than a year’s time we were able to become completely debt free! (And remain so to this day, by the grace of God.) But we couldn’t have financial freedom AND go out to eat every week.  We couldn’t lose debt AND go on a shoe-shopping spree. 

This is why I believe God’s glory must be a costly thing.  To feel all the weight of who He is, all He deserves, all He is worthy of I must also be aware of the weight of who I am, all I deserve, all I am worthy of.  He is Almighty God, Forever strong, Creator of the universe, self-existent, perfect, holy, loving.  I am futile, weak, lustful, bent on my own will, hateful, spiteful.  He deserves thousands of angels, worlds, peoples singing His praise forever and ever.  I deserve an eternity tormented and alone.  He is worthy of love, honor, devotion.  I am worthy of scorn, pity, and disgust.  I shouldn’t be sitting on the couch.

There are no exceptions.

There is no:  “Hey, I showed up to church this week.  I sponsor a child in Africa.  I help out in children’s church. I read my Bible everyday.  I listen to Christian music. Maybe I could sit on the couch for a just a little bit.  Maybe if I go on a short term missions trip.  Or tithe 15% of my income.  Or head up VBS this summer.  Then, wow, I would be doing pretty good.  Probably I could have a chance to sit on the couch.”

There is no chance I deserve any praise, any glory.  Everything I do is tainted by sin.  Only in God’s strength am I able to do any good thing.

God’s glory cost Moses friends. It cost Abraham his home.  It cost Joseph his freedom.It cost David years of fighting. It cost Job his family. It cost Jonah his prejudices.It cost Mary her reputation. It cost Peter his livelihood. It cost Paul his safety. It costs many their lives.

How dare I expect it to cost me nothing.

So here is where I am—asking myself “What has God’s glory cost me?”  What am I willing to give up or what have I given up that all might know the intense weight of His preciousness?

I’m honestly not sure yet.  But it’s worth thinking about: Only one person gets to sit on the couch.

As I have continued to think about the weight of God’s majesty, I don’t think that this question is hypothetical.  At some point, I truly believe, God’s glory will demand something precious of each of us. So my question now has been “How can I prepare now, so that when the time comes I am able to give up something costly for God’s glory?”

I think if we look to Moses’ example in Exodus we can gain a few insights on HOW we can come to the point of being able to surrender whatever so that God will receive the maximum glory.

Above in Exodus 33:18  Moses asked God to “show me Your glory.” If we look ahead to Exodus 34, we can see how God answered Moses request:

“The Lord passed before him…and Moses quickly bowed his head toward the earth and worshiped. And he said, “If now I have found favor in Your sight, O Lord, please let the Lord go in the midst of us, for it is a stiff-necked people, and pardon our iniquity and our sin, and take us for your inheritance

1. Bow and worship. “Moses quickly bowed his head toward the earth and worshiped…”                 See Him for all He is and BASK in it.
2. Ask for His presence. “…O Lord, please let the Lord go in the midst of us,…”                                        I really think this is key: God going with us in the midst of us. Relationship. Everyday. Everyplace.  Not just at church or in our “quiet time.” But a growing awareness of His movement and activity in the nuances of our lives.  Living every second in the reality of who He is and that He loves you and wants to be your friend.
3. Recognize our own stubbornness and sin. “…for it is a stiff-necked people, and pardon our iniquity and our sin,…”                                                                                                                                    According to Isaiah 64:6 all of us, even us candy-coated church kids are disgusting, filthy, stinking rotting bags of poopy diapers. Or used menstrual pads, if you like a direct translation.  There is no self-medication.  There is no answer apart from Christ’s blood; his blood spilled on the cross in order to cleanse us once and for all from the curse of sin and bring us into a relationship with Him.
4. Abandon yourself. “…and take us for your inheritance.”                                                                                   Let God take you. Let Him possess you.  Abandon yourself to God’s complete control. Once an inheritance is given it cannot be taken away.  If you are a child of God, He is holding the deed. And He is never letting go.

Only God get’s to sit on the couch, friend.

When God asks me to surrender my treasure for His glory, I pray I hear the voice of a friend, the soft whisper of the One I walk with daily, the One I trust implicitly.

Even now as I think of my dearest treasure, my heart constricts, the panic rises, “Please, God, please don’t ask for that.”

In the same breath I panic and I pray. For God daily in my midst, for abandon to His Plan,  and for rest: knowing anything His glory might cost me is well worth it.

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